Saturday, October 6, 2007

Birthday Anniversary

It's my Birthday! I am so grateful to be 35. Thirty five is where it's AT, if ya know what I mean. This time last year I wasn't so sure bout seeing my 35th birthday. I've been having a bit of an emotional time these last few days. I realized, it's for several reasons.

I tend not to think of the negative aspects of my life too much. I love the fresh air, the beach, my friends, the trees, the owl in my yard (I could go on all day). I hope to meet someone and spend my life doing things which help others, and makes me happy.

I think I'm stalling here.

With my BEST BIRTHDAY EVER also comes a difficult anniversary. I met some fantabulous people while I lived in Vancouver for treatment. I lived there for six months full time. I spent weeks in the hospital and 6-8 hours a day with a group of people at the outpatient clinic and at the Cancer Lodge. These people were my people.

Last year some of them didn't make it. More than I care to say. That was the time when I realized I wasn't invincible. I for sure wouldn't live forever. They didn't live forever....I don't believe in dwelling on it, this blog is about living. I do feel I need to honour them though, to say thanks for knowing them.

I want to say I'm so sorry to them, to their families. There are others who I would like to know how they are doing. How are you guys? With my grateful, grateful, kick-ass, BEST BIRTHDAY EVER comes a little sadness. I'm so sorry......


Duane said...

Happy Birthday and let's hope this new year brings restored health!!

You rock!!


igotmoxie said...

wow. i found your blog through etsy not even imagining the incredibly strong message that i might find.

you are so strong and wonderful. thank you so much for sharing your message and experiences with people.

happy birthday indeed. happy life!

Marissa L. Swinghammer said...

Happy birthday!

Keep kicking cancer's butt!