Tuesday, January 22, 2008


Hmm. I feel completely muddled. I feel a wee bit better today so I sat outside in the sunshine. I sat in my lawn chair on my patio soaking up all that Cancer Society recommended vitamin D. It was warm despite that it's winter.

As soon as I feel a touch better my mind races with all the things left undone. I'm behind a year and a half. My fake Christmas tree needs to be put away. My broken van needs to be sold and hauled away. My bedroom needs to be unpacked (I've been here for 8 months). I have projects which I'm working on at the speed of molasses. I have an art show in 3 months. Where do I start?

Well, I started by making lists. I haven't listed everything because I'm sure that would cause my brain to implode and THAT would be gross.

I put a few things which need to be done and the steps to complete them underneath because I can get stuck so easily by not knowing where to start. This Chemo Brain has fragmented my memory and my ability to concentrate on tasks. I was a high achiever before they blasted me with Chemo and I still have that high achiever screaming to get something done. I seem to be at the perpetual idea stage and I will be until I get some physical ability back.

Well, I did get a few nagging things done and it feels pretty good. Mostly because I got to scratch them off the list.

Oh, the satisfaction...I think it's the closest thing I'm going to get to an orgasm right now.

1 comment:

Unknown said...

Don't you just LOVE chemo brain?! I'm glad I'm not alone in this chaos of my brain right now. Heheh it's comforting to know that you are too. I have energy in my head but my body and my eyes can't seem to keep up. Ugh.
Good idea to make lists. That way you can slowly chip away at things and eventually get things done. Right on.
Bright blessings to you!