Friday, March 28, 2008
Pain is a bitch. I have a very high pain tolerance and pain seems to be my shadow these days. So I'm not always good at assessing 'normal' levels vs 'get your ass to the Dr', levels. A couple of days ago I was getting suspicious and made a doctors appointment. By yesterday morning I was SO glad to be going and by the time I was there, I was going to the mental, pain zone. I find a certain level of pain puts you into another mind state which makes it more difficult to interact with the outside world. (Feeling like vomiting from pain is another sure fire way to know when it's too much).
Just before my diagnosis two years ago, I went to emergency with what I thought was strep and there was another woman there in the waiting room with insanely severe back pain. She would quietly shudder with pain and I felt very badly for her. In cases like this I usually would let her go ahead but this time was different. I would have clawed my way right over her to get in if I had to. Once a certain threshold has been passed, all bets are off. I never would have known this had I not experienced it.
So, anyway, I'm not sure what's going on with me now. Extra strength Tylenol seems to be taking the edge off of it. I've also been given preemptive antibiotics even though they don't know what's going on yet.
About 6 months ago something similar happened and I was on morphine for a while and almost hospitalized. My kidneys were bleeding etc. I sure hope that's not happening now. They've planned an ultrasound but it's not for two weeks. I know if I called my oncologist, she would get me in right away. It's also Friday and my doctors won't be available again until Monday.
I feel like a cat licking it's wounds right now.