Wednesday, May 21, 2008
An Oprah AHA moment minus Oprah
I've been having fun making little videos. I don't have a camera or anything, just my webcam.
After a couple of days of intense video editing I was feeling exhausted. I was at a friends and wanted to curl up into a ball and be at home. I felt terrible. She was making tea for me and the next thing you know I'm taking photos of her dead flowers. I felt dried up just like the crooked one. Next thing you know, I realized I felt better.
In that second I also realized that the reason I haven't fallen into a depression, is because I create. I create therefore I am.
Depression is extremely common after a bone marrow transplant and I've had my moments but nothing you can call depression.
So, therefore, I will keep creating videos, photographs, paintings, blog posts. It's what is keeping me alive. I've never been so clear on something as I was at that moment.