How often in life do we get to personally thank the people who truly inspired us and make our lives better? I just did.
When I was sick and immobile I would surf the net a lot (I like talking about that like it's past tense). I hated it. I wanted to be out doing stuff, hiking mountains, creating, having a life. I was grasping for something that could keep my hopes up and better yet laugh at all the bullshit I was dealing with.
I was simultaneously going through a really ugly phase (physical ugliness, not inner ugliness) because of my drugs and my hair attempting to grow back in (ugh) and having given myself a black eye that wouldn't go away. It was pretty brutal and devastating. I looked like something someone had chewed up and spat out. When I went out people wouldn't even look at me, they looked through me.
Then I came across a video made by Chris Levins, of Cute with Chris. I believe it involved a severed foot, before floating severed feet put the Canadian West Coast on the world map. Good call on that one Chris.
He said "All your dreams are dead". What? How did he know? And then when he called people who are whiny about their problems as "a sucky little Bitch" I was smitten. Why, I feel like a sucky little bitch!
I laughed my ass off and truthfully, laughing is was what got me through all this hell.
Then on Saturday, I saw his live show when he came to Victoria! When I was 12 I made a firm oath to never let a giggle cross my lips because, in my opinion, giggling made you look dumb. I'm all about crushing your emotions deep inside where no one will ever see them.
Well, when I had this photo taken with him outside the show I full on giggled like a 14 year old. If my 12 year old self could see me now she'd be deeply ashamed. Just look at my big, dumb ass, goofy smile.
As a life experience, it was well worth it.
And best yet I was able to tell him what his videos meant to me and how they helped put some joy in my life at some of the worst possible times. I believe life is about quality not quantity. What good is being here if you can't have a good fucking laugh every day.
If you get the chance you should check out his new project, Chris Leavins Story Hour on iTunes. His stories are brilliant.
Thanks Chris! You made my day!