Saturday, May 31, 2008


I'm in my studio. I am sore and feel somewhat violated even though the surgery was for the greater good. I've just come down here to get away from my bed. I've spent too much time in my bed these last two years. Even though I hurt, I feel so physically relieved.

I've just tidied up the space on my studio floor where I sat the last three months crippled in pain and painting in what I called my nest. I was in too much pain to even sit in a chair at my easel. I had a show scheduled, so I painted. I've always seemed to keep going no matter how harsh my circumstances. But now as I sit here looking at my newly clear floor that was so recently my nest, I see how ridiculous I must be.


Captain Skulduggery Dug said...

Dear god you should see my house right now.We have hula hoops everywhere, wool and hats on every surface. It looks like a whirlwind has swept through. It's an utter mess ans I'm staying in my bedroom praying I don't have to go out in it... although this room is just as bad, but I'm used to the mess here as I create hats etc in here all the time when I'm too ill to get up. It's less that 2 weeks until the first festival we are selling at starts and the moving from festival to home to festival goes on. I have no idea how my body will cope with it but I guess it has to be more fun that laying in bed. I'm nowhere near ready!

High Desert Diva said...

Why in the world does this make you feel ridiculous?

rachel d said...

you do art because you have to. feel better.

I'm glad you will be in less pain.

I think art can take you to a zone where art and other stuff can fade away... if you can get to the zone their can be the out of body moments.

High Desert Diva said...

Thought this quote was apt...

"Conditions for creativity are to be puzzled; to concentrate; to accept conflict and tension; to be born everyday; to feel a sense of self."

-Erich Fromm

becca.elpy said...

I don't understand why you feel ridiculous either. I do understand the nest thing. I actually prefer working on the floor when I can. I like to be in the center and have all kinds of stuff spread, stacked and laying around me and lose myself.

Get well.

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Tragicomedy said...

Hope you and Gina are doing well.