Lists

Hmm. I feel completely muddled. I feel a wee bit better today so I sat outside in the sunshine. I sat in my lawn chair on my patio soaking up all that Cancer Society recommended vitamin D. It was warm despite that it's winter.

As soon as I feel a touch better my mind races with all the things left undone. I'm behind a year and a half. My fake Christmas tree needs to be put away. My broken van needs to be sold and hauled away. My bedroom needs to be unpacked (I've been here for 8 months). I have projects which I'm working on at the speed of molasses. I have an art show in 3 months. Where do I start?

Well, I started by making lists. I haven't listed everything because I'm sure that would cause my brain to implode and THAT would be gross.

I put a few things which need to be done and the steps to complete them underneath because I can get stuck so easily by not knowing where to start. This Chemo Brain has fragmented my memory and my ability to concentrate on tasks. I was a high achiever before they blasted me with Chemo and I still have that high achiever screaming to get something done. I seem to be at the perpetual idea stage and I will be until I get some physical ability back.

Well, I did get a few nagging things done and it feels pretty good. Mostly because I got to scratch them off the list.

Oh, the satisfaction...I think it's the closest thing I'm going to get to an orgasm right now.