Saturday, March 22, 2008


Recently I've been reminded of the quote I put in my grad calendar as my submission.

"Not all of the world is beautiful, and not all of life is good. The true artist has no right to choose only the lovely spots and make us think this is life. He(she) must bring the world before our eyes...he(she) must tell the truth". -Darrow

I added the "she" in so it made more sense to me. It seems ironic that this is the basic idea of how I am conducting myself now. I hope people realize how hard it is to speak the truth because so many people just don't want to hear it.

There's also nothing more condescending than telling someone going through hardship, that they should look only at the good pieces and cheer up.

I feel very lucky that so many people see the balance in life, and that the good can come with the bad.

As the wise and all knowing Kelly from Chemopolooza once said;

"I’m an optimist with a pinch of cynicism and a dash of fuck you :)"

Well said Kelly.


High Desert Diva said...

I like Kelly's quote!

Tragicomedy said...

There's a lot of people out there who cannot digest the truth as well as others. Broccoli gives me indigestion, truth gives me hope that honest people still exist.

I've been told before I was a 'morbidly curious" person. While that sounds extreme, there's truth to it. I want truth, I want details, I want to know exactly how bad things are because running around with blinders thinking life is good as long as you're positive or actively seeking only good is going to end up punching me in the face with an angry fist full of reality.

I know this girl who won't watch any 'negative' movies. Movies that are fake, made up, like horror films. She says the negativity has no place in her life, even if it's not true. She won't watch movies she's heard don't have a happy ending. She won't even watch true tales that have happy endings if there were bad events in the middle. Not that I'd wish bad on her, of course, but when something is thrown her way she isn't going to be prepared at all because you can't turn off reality like you can your television.

If I had a dollar for everytime someone said, "It's all looking up now" or "this is the 'rock bottom' things can't get worse" or my personal favorite, "everything happens for a reason" I'd be so rich.

My thing is never underestimate the power of shitty luck. Things can always get worse just as they can get better. I will not look at the good side of things alone, I will look at all sides of things because there's no way in hell I'm going to be blindsided while I was drawing a big happy face on my mask.

You simply cannot look at only the positive side of things in a world that is filled with negative things. Bad people, bad health, bad stuff. For every good, there is bad.

My mother and I always have conflicts about how I raise my son. To be honest, I'm doing it because I don't want him to end up how I previously was. I am a no-bullshit kind of person. He knows when I sign "Santa" on his present that I bought it, but "Santa" is just something to make Christmas fun and it's a "Spirit" sort of thing. I do admit to telling him the Easter Bunny is a myth and would have been at home giving himself insulin shots if he were real.

He knows what I know, life can do whatever it wants and you can't control it but you can and should do your very best to adapt to every situation you're in. He's turned out well, he gets perfect grades, he's loving and caring, highly intelligent and has an amazing sense of humor (dry humor, of course). He also knows that should I get sick, he has dibs on shaving my head so that it's cooler to say he got to shave his mom's head versus her being sick and losing it.

I'd rather find humor in a situation than something that's not there unless I falsely create it. Sometimes there's nothing good in a situation, you can dwell on it, deal with it, or put on your blinders and pretend it's something it's not.