Thursday, November 6, 2008

Little Yellow Pill

I felt a lot better today. I don't think I feel any better than I did 3 days ago, before the amtitryptoline. The first 2 days on this I wasn't able to wake up fully, or get out of bed when I tried to. I also felt completely wacked out until 3:30 in the afternoon. I didn't think I should drive and probably shouldn't be posting under the influence.

A friend of mine had to use it once and she had good results with it. I'm not so sure about me.

Today I was able to get up at 10:30 and was able to go on with my day. I guess I'll see how things go.

10 comments:

Forever Foxed said...

I hope the Ami works for you. It turned me into a bit of a zombie but I don't think many people noticed, lol!

One Mother with Cancer said...

Just stopping by to say hi, I had a bad visit with my oncologist yesterday, will know more in two weeks.

hockeychic said...

Glad that today is a bit better.

Duane said...

It has been awhile since I stopped by. I love your new profile pic. Classic! :)

Ronni Gordon said...

Glad you feel better, but, you know, if the pill doesn't agree with you, there are probably others that do siilar things. Sounds like you know how to speak up for yourself. That is terrific. Hope you feel better soon. Love your spirit.

Tash said...

Glad today's looking up. Hang in there...

Miss Melanoma said...

Hey girlie,
Good old amtitryptoline kicked my arse, too, in a royal way. I just remember being super thirsty and super tired all of the time. It did help with the pain I was having, though, so I hope it does well for you or that you get something better soon.
I've been doing a lot of work on myself lately, and some of that has been my evaluation of how I treat myself. During Interferon I was SO sick all of the time. For a year I could barely get out of bed and get around. Now I look back at how physically limited I was and how frustrating that was to me. Forget my emotional health- I was just trying to get through the day physically. Now I can see compassionately how I was just trying to deal with things and survive the process. When I read your blog I see so much of that time in my life in your words. You have no idea how I sympathize with you; and you also, because we seem to have so much in common, probably have no idea how hard you are being on yourself. I see you call yourself a "complete failure" and I completely identify with how you feel. I was the same way: graduated cumme laude while working 2 jobs and supporting myself through school. You're like a super hero to me- doing the same but in such a tough field while obviously doing an insanely good job of raising 3 boys. I know how hard that compliment probably is to take but my point is this: no matter your super hero status to me or your awesome Wonderwoman cuffs, you are going through so much. Please don't beat yourself up for any feeling associated with all you've had to endure and the related "unproductive" sickness/fatigue. When those feelings come at you, maybe it will help to see yourself through the eyes of those people, like me, who are so inspired by you, my friend. Because you are simply amazing.

I'll be thinking of you.

L

Charlotte said...

Just stopping by to say 'hi' and see how you're doing...

I hope you're okay; been wondering how you're getting on.

Sending love and energy from the UK!!! Charlotte xx

FLJ said...

Just remember ... everything you want to do is still waiting for you!

That cancer cure you went through is a huge insult to your body ... it's taking your body a long time to fully recover from it. That's normal. You will get where you want to go. You're just taking a few detours along the way.

Instead of concentrating on the goals you had for yourself before you were sick ... create some new smaller goals for yourself that you can work on now. Achieving those smaller goals will lift your spirits.

Something else to think about ... what smaller goals have you achieved now that you haven't even noticed, because you've been so depressed about the larger goals that seem so far away? Things like your videos, the art pieces you've created, etc etc.

I remember reading Don Quixote in a spanish lit class ... one great truth I got out of that book was ... it's not the big goals at the end that are important, it's the tiny milestones along the way. It's the journey, not the destination.

hockeychic said...

Thinking about you, it's been awhile since we've seen a post from you. I hope you are doing o.k.