I keep writing blog posts and deleting them. I'm not sure what's up with that. It might be because I've planned to reformat the blog and I'm trying to work on something else as well. I feel fractured and can't gather enough of my pieces to go forward with anything.
Yesterday I had my bi-weekly blood work taken by the vampires at the hospital. I'm better enough now to get my own ass there and so I walk. It feels good to be able to walk myself somewhere and make it back again. Slowly but surely I'm getting better, in small steps. I remember a nurse talking to me about a week after I was out of the hospital from my transplant. I was having a really bad time and she told me a transplant was a lot like being reborn. I was like a new baby and would have to go through all the phases and hurdles before I could go forth and be strong again. I would have to start from the beginning.
I wish she hadn't been so right.