Thursday, July 14, 2011

Captive

Usually I feel like my bed is my little safe space where I can curl up and rest but sometimes it feels like an island I can't escape from. I can get so exhausted that there's nowhere else for me to go.

I have a collage on the wall that a friend of mine made with, "DREAM", written on it in silver glitter. I also have a print from Art and Ghosts, my painting and a photo of a girl who went to my university around the same time as me. She was a blogger that wrote until her last day about living with a double lung transplant. The photograph is so beautiful and inspiring.

At some point in one of my travels to my oncologists I managed to get a nice duvet cover and another time, an antique bed for $30. I've clocked a lot of miles here (not that way! {unfortunately}), might as well have it looking nice and feeling comfy. Still sucks to be so tired that I can hardly move. Luckily that is less and less all the time.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi Baldylocks,
My name is Liz and I have been following your blog for a while now. I am sorry that life after cancer is so difficult to adjust to. I suppose it's hard to explain an empty resume but to expect it to be full is unreasonable. You will be alright and you will find a job and you will feel a lot better. Keep on writing and we will keep on reading. Perhaps you might be able to eventually compile the posts you've made and turn them into a book.
That said, since your blog is a great resource for someone going through cancer I wanted to reach out to you to see if you were interested in a new online social support network (that I am the community manager of!) called I Had Cancer. It is a new and free social support network focused on connecting people based on experiences with cancer so that they can easily communicate with one another and share information. I would love to tell you more if you are interested, so please let me know! Because I was so struck by your writing I would love to send you an early-access pass with extra invites for others you may know going through this journey.

Either way, thank you so much for your writing. Take care and best regards.
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Jens said...

Attractive woman.

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