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I wish today was like every other Monday. I'm sitting in my living room by the glass doors looking over my teeny backyard. The sun is shining and it looks like it's snowing. My yard has a small tree covered in pink blossoms and the parent tree hangs over my yard. It's like having puffy pink clouds floating outside my windows. The petals keep floating down with every breeze.

I should really go for a walk because I'm sure it's warm and would pick up my spirits like it always does. Unfortunately I'm waiting for some biopsy results of my cervix.

Two weeks ago I travelled for my usual check up at the gyno-oncologist. Everything started as usual with smiling faces and lighthearted talk, telling me I wasn't due for any pap tests. That was until they put my cervix up on the giant gyno-vision. Suddenly their faces changed and were glued onto the screen. They used several sheets of gauze for the pap and then proceeded to take two biopsies. I looked at the screen trying to see what they saw but I must admit, I'm not familiar with what my cervix is supposed to look like. All I know is that it didn't look like usual. It looked like it had big water bubbles on it. When I asked what was up they just told me that it might be swelling from all the drugs I'm on, yadda, yadda. They were grasping for something easy to tell me. I'm not new at this, though, I've been around Dr.s and nurses enough to recognize that look.

Something is wrong.

Sucking out the Lymph Node

Thanks for all the warm thoughts today. The biopsy went smoothly and I did the drop off at my parents so my son is happy. They froze his neck a little and sucked out some cells from one large lymph node (the doctor, not my parents). It looks like a tiny little vampire got him twice in the neck. He was fine and didn't fuss at all and I'm pretty sure it's because he didn't want to seem like a wuss in front of the male doctor and technician.

I have to admit, it was very odd seeing someone else on the biopsy table and to be able to see what was going on. As a patient you can't really see what they are doing to you. I'm pretty sure that's a good thing.

Anyway, I'm very confident that the results will be clear of anything nasty. This is being done mostly because I had cancer and they just want to be sure that the lumps are normal adolescent development. Some people get lumps, some don't.

If it did turn out to be something bad I guess I would probably have to throw myself into the raging, lava pit of a volcano because it would be obvious that the gods are seriously ticked at me. A virgin *ahem* sacrifice would probably be the only thing that would fix the seething, unbridled, god wrath. It cures the problem 9 times out of 10.

Biopsy Day

Today we are off to the hospital for my son to have an ultrasound led biopsy of a lump on his neck. He's terrified of the hospital and procedures, so I've distracted him with getting to see his friends when it's done. He's 14. I'll be driving him straight from the hospital up to our home town where my parents live and he'll get to roam free.

I sure hope he doesn't bail, he needs this done.