Joy in Things

I'm so excited about my new little pet. I just acquired this tiny little vintage Starflex camera and am pretty excited about it.





I welcomed it into my life by snapping some photos of it with my digital camera. Digital meets analog.

Exercise for Dummies -a picture story

So here is how it goes. Your camera just came back all shiny and new and you feel a bit peppy so you haul yourself out of bed to go and try it out.








First of all you head to a nearby cove and trek 3 flights of stairs down the to the beach.










Where you see some really cool roots and crawl around taking photos.












Get hissed at by one of the incredible wonders of nature.














And haul your ass back up the stairs with your bed ridden, atrophied leg muscles.















The next day you drive up to the top of a nearby mountain.












Begin to experiment with your new camera remote.




Remembering to go back and forth, back and forth to adjust the camera angle and see how it's turning out.




Next get really excited about being out in the fresh air and decide to keep going, up to the peak.






Go up some more stairs.
















Then some more.

















And some more.








Set your camera up at the top.


Be sure to continue setting up your camera and running back and forth and back and forth to see how the pictures are turning out. When you get sick of your boring photos start throwing yourself off the lookout to see if you can get the timing right to get a shot of you in mid air.

Don't be surprised when you can't move at all the next day or the day after. What do you really expect after spending the last 2 years in bed? And don't worry, everyone who reads your blog will be sure that you lead an exciting, active life.

Feeling like crap is all part of the master plan.

Camera Reclaimed

Yessss!!!

My baby's back!

I'm a whole heck of a lot poorer after paying to fix it but at least I can photo document my financial destitution!

Call me a Whaaaambulance.

I just took my camera into the camera hospital and it's going to cost me $300 to fix it! I dropped it a little while ago because my medications make me so shaky. I just spent $145 yesterday on medications and related paraphernalia, alone.

My camera is my ability to create (somewhat blurry pictures) while I am unable to paint. It allows me to feel a little bit of control over my situation. I feel like I am missing an appendage without it. I didn't realize what a coping mechanism it is for me. I sort of knew, but not really.

I take it with me wherever I go. It feels like my shield from reality and now I'm naked without it. Carrying my camera gives me a sense that I'm only "undercover" in this whole cancer dance.

Well, damn. It's not the end of the world but it is huge to me. Hello credit card debt.


I also want to send out a big HUG to Neil.