Well, here I am, peeking out of my hole. Thanks everyone for the kind comments. I'm not sure how to write this as I haven't finished mentally processing my gynecologist's news yet, but I'll try.
I was expecting another routine exam where everything would be fine. I've been having a lot of problems with GVH which you can read about on my side bar <-------- if you need to. My brothers stem cells are attacking me but mostly it's under control. One of the places affected is my Vagina. (Vagina gets capitalized because it's important) I've been experiencing what I can only describe as being scalded "down there". It's been red and hurts like a @!#&! This is a chronic problem but I've been hopeful it will heal and my body will get better overall.
The good news is that it has healed a great deal. The bad news is there is a lot of scar tissue and if I ever want to have sex again, I will need surgery. She wouldn't even insert the "woman probe" (sorry, too upset to deal with proper medical terminology) because she couldn't. She said I literally could not have sex if I tried.
Fuck. This is the worst thing that has happened to me in, forever. Correction, I'm taking this harder than anything in recent memory, including being told I had leukemia.