I'm so exhausted that I could cry. I knew there would be a physical toll to pay for going to New York and I'm paying it. I just wish it wasn't this way. When it gets like this I'm not able to accomplish anything and I get extremely frustrated.
All I want is a normal life where I get to do normal things that any other 37 year old would get to do. All I can do is sit here listening to the rain in my OMG conference T shirt and wondering if I will ever sleep again.
Fuck cancer, fuck mind bending exhaustion, fuck post cancer life and fuck early chemotherapy induced menopause. Hopefully that covers it all....
Oh, and fuck going from feeling like a 24 year old to feeling like an 80 year old in 4 years flat.