This post contains the best hour of my life...after the cervix update.
Well, I'll give you the short version of why I'm in pain. My ultrasound discovered that the graft/vs/host from my bone marrow transplant has been attacking my vagina and I need surgery to fix it. Well now I find out that the same thing has happened to my cervix. My cervix has in fact been blocked by the scarring and fluids are filling up inside of me. It is very serious and painful.
My blog is a little like LOST, so if you want to catch up to speed read this post.
So today I had the most amazing thing ever happen. I dreamt of it happening but didn't see how it could ever happen. But it did! Please forgive me but I'm going to giggle like a school girl.
I went to an appointment at the Cancer Agency and when I came out I saw an ambulance pull up the the heli pad. I DIDN"T HAVE MY CAMERA WITH ME for once! My diagnosis and being flown to the larger hospital was a huge moment for me. I have been fantasizing about taking photos of the helicopter taking off. My experience was so closed off. I wanted to see it from a less painful angle.
I calmly drove all the way home picked up my camera and drove back. It had just landed, then I realized I had done something weird to my camera and the pilot asked me if I had gotten a good shot. He came over, fixed my camera and brought me to the helipad and took photos of me!!!!
This is the back where I was placed on a stretcher. I had 3 paramedics with me.
The helicopter ride was the most amazing, intense, powerful and painful experience of my life. It was a gorgeous day and they flew low all the way over the water. The views were stunning and I was enjoying it but I was in such severe pain that I needed morphine when I got to my hospital room.
When they took me out of the helicopter on the rooftop landing in Vancouver, we were in the middle of the city. They slowly turned the stretcher around giving me the breathtaking views of the city and mountains.
This time I was simply the observer. I wanted to know what that moment would have been like for somebody else.
The pilot was so kind to me. They even hovered the copter and turned it to it's side for me to take photos of. After waiting for me they went off on their regular duties.
This photo shows all my children saw of me when I was taken away.
Today has completely blown me away. Fuck pain when you're having fun! It was as if it wasn't even there.